camelyia

One day, I woke up, and immediately wrote this down.

I saw you again tonight in a dream.

I still feel the same way
I did all those years before
I try so hard but cannot say
How much of you I adore

I want to tell you that you are forgiven
For all that happened back then
But I can't help but be smitten
By your smiling face again

Regret, it pools on my tongue, I'm so sorry my dear
I didn't do it from malice, it all just came from fear
I simply stutter, yet from me not a single sound
Still I feel deep in my bosom
My love for you abounds

You stand there, backdrop of an elysian sky
Catalina in the distance, teardrops well in my eye
I'm so proud of you, I wish I could express
I wish I could tell you, I wish I could put it to rest

But instead I just steal away these moments
Lucid as I am till the end
To talk to you like I once did
Once again you are my friend

Hand in hand, just us, you and me
A giggle without care over a cup of tea
It's not the romance that did it, or a special date
It's the small and unknown moments
That do the most elate

I know what is coming next
I look at you straight in the eye
And see what I saw long ago
When I watched your love for me die

And suddenly, I wake up startled
But all alone
As the loneliness tears me apart
Limb from limb and flesh from bone